In the woods, Caroline is ready to give up the hunt when they see Miss Cuddles ear poking out of the ground. Bonnie is drinking by herself and crying. Kai starts chanting and he and Jeremy are in 1994. Jeremy drags Kai to the kitchen and begs him to send him back so he can save Bonnie. But Jeremy wakes up and sees what's happening and launches a knife into Liv's arm. She takes advantage of his hesitation and flings the fork at him again. She tells him to just do it, but can't follow through.
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Then he douses her in alcohol and holds up a candle. Liv tries to immobilize Kai, but he magics a fork into her neck. Jeremy wakes up and yells but she flings him across the room. Back at the house, Liv has skewered him with a fire poker. Kai can't help, he notices he's bleeding through the stomach. In 1994, Jeremy finds the atlas and opens it to Nova Scotia, but then the magic wears off. Elena doesn't love the answer and tries to leave the room, but she's blocked by a spell. Elena wonders if she'd be with Damon if she were still human. At the house, Damon heads for the same bottle of bourbon Bonnie is drinking, determined to drink it with her. Sara sees him and takes pity, offering to buy him coffee and a bus ticket back to Mystic Falls. Back at Duke, Matt sits on a bus bench, freezing. At the house, Kai is deep in his spell and clearly laboring. He knocks her onto the ground and she has to admit she feels a little better. He tries to egg her on until she starts to get angry and levels him with a shovel. Stefan is drinking his flask and is thoroughly entertained. In the woods, Caroline has dug dozens of holes and come up empty. Jeremy volunteers to go alone, even though it could mean he gets stuck there. Damon scribbled notes about Nova Scotia in a book, they just need to get her to see it. Kai's nose is bleeding from the magic drain. Suddenly they're all back in the real world. Damon tells them about a pact they made if they couldn't take Purgatory anymore: drain the bourbon then kill themselves. They see Bonnie watching footage of her with Damon and then cracking the oldest bourbon in the house.
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But she can't hear them and they can't touch anything. He recites a spell and suddenly they're in 1994 Purgatory. At the house, Kai prepares Elena, Damon and Jeremy to pay a ghostly visit to Bonnie. At Duke, Matt tries to chat up Sara, but she's not interested. When Tyler tries again to stop her, she uses magic to knock him out. Tyler reminds her that if she kills Kai, he'll come after her whole coven. Liv tries an old spell she and Luke used to use to see through each other's eyes. In the woods, Stefan keeps Caroline company as she digs for Miss Cuddles. At the Salvatore house, Damon suggests they tell Bonnie to go to Nova Scotia and find Qetsia's magic-soaked blood on Silas's tombstone. Tyler tries to convince her to leave town so Kai won't get her, but she doesn't see any point in running without Luke. In her dorm room, Liv is wrecked over the death of her twin, Luke. Damon plays on Kai's newfound emotions about it being Bonnie's birthday and convinces him to send a message about where to find magic. Back at the Salvatore house, Kai says he can't repair the ascendant. Matt doesn't want to go along with Enzo's plan that Matt get to know her, but Enzo threatens Matt's mom, saying he found her in South Carolina.
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Enzo is annoyed that Stefan is letting Damon think he killed her. At Duke, Enzo points out the real Sara Salvatore to Matt. Elena thinks of something he can do for them in return. "I really feel strongly that Jo needs to know how sorry I am for destroying our family," Kai says.
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He tried writing a letter to Jo and found himself crying over Jo. And he feels bad, which is really harshing his sociopath buzz. He explains that after the merge, in which he killed Luke and took his powers, he seems to have absorbed some of Luke's humanity. In the kitchen, Elena lets Damon know she's OK with them having kissed by kissing him again. Suddenly, she announces she's going to find the buried bear. Her mom is dying, her best friend is stuck in an alternate universe and Miss Cuddles is buried in the woods and there's only one of those things she can do anything about. After a fight when they were kids, Caroline buried Miss Cuddles in the woods. Inside the Salvatore house, Caroline confesses to Stefan that she stole Bonnie's original Miss Cuddles teddy bear - the one Bonnie put her magic in in 1994. In Mystic Falls, Elena brings supplies to celebrate Bonnie's birthday.